2007-11-02 [Jasiara Hotalti]: ((now i'm really leaving, later guys))

2007-11-02 [Fake smiles and Bittersweet kisses]: (jinsai) *moves infront of her kneeling down* maybe i was mad....mad at myself...but mostly i was sad..and worried ((byes))

2007-11-02 [;;Melodrama Junkie]: ((Byeee <3 love yooh)) *Turns away slightly once more* Uhum....why?

2007-11-02 [Fake smiles and Bittersweet kisses]: (jinsai) *looks down* i was worried about you and sad that i couldnt protect you and that your blaming all this on yourself....

2007-11-02 [;;Melodrama Junkie]: Well..It is my fault..If I wasn't here..if i'd just left like I planned...you'd be fine..you'd still be happy...

2007-11-02 [Fake smiles and Bittersweet kisses]: (jinsai) *sighs* your not listening to me....

2007-11-02 [;;Melodrama Junkie]: I am! You just want to make me feel better...*sighs and trails off mumbling in Russian glancing at him*

2007-11-02 [Fake smiles and Bittersweet kisses]: (jinsai) no your not...and im just tryign to make you understand

2007-11-02 [;;Melodrama Junkie]: *Sighs* Fine...Whatever..But..*turns to face him using a firmer voice* You should be inside where it is safer...

2007-11-02 [Fake smiles and Bittersweet kisses]: (jinsai) i think you should be more worried about yourself leyla

2007-11-02 [;;Melodrama Junkie]: *shrugs* Well. I 'm not. Now. you should be inside.

2007-11-02 [Fake smiles and Bittersweet kisses]: (jinsai) *shakes his head standing* you comming with me

2007-11-02 [;;Melodrama Junkie]: Nah..I'm good here for now...*smiles weakly at him then sits down, leaning against a tree*

2007-11-02 [Fake smiles and Bittersweet kisses]: (jinsai) *crosses his arms sitting back down next to her*

2007-11-02 [;;Melodrama Junkie]: *sighs and looks down, rubbing her arms and shuddering* fine..Stay then..

2007-11-02 [Fake smiles and Bittersweet kisses]: (jinsai) *scotts away a little not wanting to make her any colder*

2007-11-02 [;;Melodrama Junkie]: *Looks down, obviously taking it the wrong way as she starts wiping her eyes*

2007-11-02 [Fake smiles and Bittersweet kisses]: (jinsai) *looks over at her* w-whats wrong?

2007-11-02 [;;Melodrama Junkie]: *shrugs* Nothing...It doesn't matter..come on..Let's go back..*trails off mumbling almost inaudibly "then you dont have to be near me..." and standing, walking away into the forest towards the castle**

2007-11-02 [Fake smiles and Bittersweet kisses]: (jinsai) *grabs her hand* is that why your crying? cause you think i dont want to be near you?

2007-11-02 [;;Melodrama Junkie]: *Scratches her head and gently tugs her hand away* I didn't..say..that..*Looks down and sighs* Well..Maybe...

2007-11-02 [Fake smiles and Bittersweet kisses]: (jinsai) *hugs her tightly before pulling away* its not that...

2007-11-02 [;;Melodrama Junkie]: *Nods slightly barely hugging him back before he pulls away* Okay...Well...*sighs and looks down, wiping her eyes again before suddenly throwing her arms around him and hugging him tightly*

2007-11-02 [Fake smiles and Bittersweet kisses]: (jinsai) *hugs her back just as tightly his cool breath touching her skin*

2007-11-02 [;;Melodrama Junkie]: *Immediately soaks his shoulder with her tears* I'm sorry...I just..wanted to help you...I thought..You'd be better..If I stayed further away from you...*Shudders slightly at his breath*

2007-11-02 [Fake smiles and Bittersweet kisses]: (jinsai) *shakes his head holding her closer* i would never want that.....thats why i was so hurt erlier...i thought you didnt want ME around anymore

2007-11-02 [;;Melodrama Junkie]: *smiles very slightly loosening her grip on him sniffling* thanks...I think..

2007-11-02 [shadows of life]: ((hey))

2007-11-02 [Fake smiles and Bittersweet kisses]: (jinsai) *pulls back alittle* lets get back to the castle so you can warm up

2007-11-03 [;;Melodrama Junkie]: ((hiii ^^)) *shrugs slightly* Um..If you want....

2007-11-03 [shadows of life]: ((so what going on?))

2007-11-03 [Fake smiles and Bittersweet kisses]: (jinsai) *takes her hand and starts walking*

2007-11-03 [;;Melodrama Junkie]: ((Not a lot tbh lol kristi appeared by shade earlier btw lol)) (Leyla) *Follows silently but then starts mumbling in frantic russian*

2007-11-03 [Fake smiles and Bittersweet kisses]: (jinsai) *looks over at her rasing a brow*

2007-11-03 [shadows of life]: ((thanks i didn't see that before))(Shade)*looks up at Kristi*

2007-11-03 [;;Melodrama Junkie]: (Leyla) *Sees him looking at her and stops, going silent again as she follows him* (Kristi) *smiles weakly at him* How are you? ((welcome^^))

2007-11-03 [Fake smiles and Bittersweet kisses]: (jinsai) is somthing wrong?

2007-11-03 [;;Melodrama Junkie]: *Shakes her head* Nah..It's nothing...

2007-11-03 [shadows of life]: (Shade) ~i'm ok i guess~

2007-11-03 [Fake smiles and Bittersweet kisses]: (jinsai) are you sure

2007-11-03 [;;Melodrama Junkie]: *sits down and strokes him* You guess? (Leyla) *Nods and forces a smile* Yeah..I'm fine..Come on..LEt's keep going..

2007-11-03 [shadows of life]: (Shade) *nods*

2007-11-03 [Fake smiles and Bittersweet kisses]: (jinsai) alright...if you say so

2007-11-03 [;;Melodrama Junkie]: (Leyla) So..Are you better now..? (Kristi) *smiles slightly* Not much better than me then..

2007-11-03 [shadows of life]: (Shade) ~not wrong with you~

2007-11-03 [Fake smiles and Bittersweet kisses]: (jinsai) *lets out a breath it comming out in a small white cloud* better than i was

2007-11-03 [;;Melodrama Junkie]: (KRisti) What? *Leyla) *Nods* Good...Good.. ((going bed! ^^ night))

2007-11-03 [Fake smiles and Bittersweet kisses]: ((night)) (jinsai) *sighs* i guess so.....

2007-11-03 [;;Melodrama Junkie]: What do you mean? *frowns*

2007-11-03 [Fake smiles and Bittersweet kisses]: (jinsai) *shrugs* nevermind

2007-11-03 [shadows of life]: (Shade)~nothing~

2007-11-04 [;;Melodrama Junkie]: (Leyla) *Nods and walks ahead into the castle sitting right beside the fire almost touching it* (Kristi) *Nods slightly* Okay...You know..Instead of moping you could try to find her if that's what this is about..?

2007-11-04 [shadows of life]: (shade)~i been doing that~

2007-11-04 [;;Melodrama Junkie]: Oh..No luck i'm guessing?

2007-11-04 [shadows of life]: (Shade)~yeah~

2007-11-04 [;;Melodrama Junkie]: Hmm....Well..Either she is really good at covering her tracks..or someone else is..

2007-11-04 [shadows of life]: (Shade) ~but i'm not sure she back yet~

2007-11-04 [;;Melodrama Junkie]: Why aren't you sure?

2007-11-04 [shadows of life]: (Shade) ~i would at lest since her~

2007-11-04 [Jasiara Hotalti]: (Pheonara) *walks down a long corridor within the castle*

2007-11-05 [Fake smiles and Bittersweet kisses]: (jinsai) *walks over sitting her few feet away from her*

2007-11-05 [Jasiara Hotalti]: (Pheonara) *sighs as she looks up*

2007-11-05 [Fake smiles and Bittersweet kisses]: (amaya) *walks up* is somthing wrong phe?

2007-11-05 [Jasiara Hotalti]: (Pheonara) *shakes her head as she peers at Amaya having not noticed her until she spoke* oh, no its nothing, sorry....

2007-11-05 [Fake smiles and Bittersweet kisses]: (amaya) are you sure

2007-11-05 [;;Melodrama Junkie]: (Leyla) *Looks over at Jinsai then scoots closer to the fire*

2007-11-05 [Fake smiles and Bittersweet kisses]: (jinsai) *sighs quietly looking down* be careful of your going to burn yoursef

2007-11-05 [;;Melodrama Junkie]: *Shrugs* I am already quite warm..*glances down her the edge of her dress which is slightly flaming*

2007-11-05 [Fake smiles and Bittersweet kisses]: (jinsai) leyla! *moves over quickly patting out the flames*

2007-11-05 [;;Melodrama Junkie]: Calm down...It's okay..*Looks down, not moving further from the fire*

2007-11-05 [Fake smiles and Bittersweet kisses]: (jinsai) what do you mean calm down

2007-11-05 [;;Melodrama Junkie]: *shrugs* I don't know..It just wasn't a big deal...

2007-11-05 [Fake smiles and Bittersweet kisses]: (jinsai) for you maybe

2007-11-05 [;;Melodrama Junkie]: Why was it for you..?

2007-11-05 [Fake smiles and Bittersweet kisses]: (jinsai) cause you could have gotten hurt

2007-11-05 [;;Melodrama Junkie]: *smiles* Nah..

2007-11-05 [Fake smiles and Bittersweet kisses]: (jinsai) *looks at her* if you say so

2007-11-05 [;;Melodrama Junkie]: Don't worry so much..*Pats his hand lightly before resting it in her lap again staring into the fire*

2007-11-05 [shadows of life]: ((hey))

2007-11-05 [Fake smiles and Bittersweet kisses]: (jinsai) *lets his gaze fall to the floor*

2007-11-05 [;;Melodrama Junkie]: ((^^ Heyyy)) *Looks at him, tilting her head to the side* What is it?

2007-11-05 [shadows of life]: ((what up))

2007-11-05 [;;Melodrama Junkie]: ((^^ Floor))

2007-11-05 [shadows of life]: ((nice soo where Krist))

2007-11-05 [;;Melodrama Junkie]: ((With shade still :P ))

2007-11-05 [shadows of life]: ((did i miss what she said to him))

2007-11-05 [;;Melodrama Junkie]: ((Lol iunno. Look))

2007-11-05 [shadows of life]: ((i didn't see anything))

2007-11-05 [;;Melodrama Junkie]: ((Hmm coulda sworn i had...)) (Kristi) *Nods* I guess so..

2007-11-05 [Jasiara Hotalti]: (Pheonara) *nods slightly* quite sure

2007-11-05 [shadows of life]: ((ok then)) (Shade) ~yeah..~

2007-11-05 [;;Melodrama Junkie]: *Smiles* Well..Don't give up..

2007-11-05 [shadows of life]: (Shade) *shrugs*

2007-11-05 [;;Melodrama Junkie]: Cheer up hun *hugs him and strokes him&* don't worry..

2007-11-05 [shadows of life]: (Shade) *purrs a little* ...

2007-11-05 [Fake smiles and Bittersweet kisses]: (amaya) alright....but if you ever need anything you know im here (jinsai) n-nothing.....

2007-11-05 [;;Melodrama Junkie]: Well a least now I won't have to go find you a bar with girls in skirts..*chuckles*

2007-11-05 [shadows of life]: (Shade) *start walking away*

2007-11-05 [;;Melodrama Junkie]: (Kristi) Mm..Sorry...*Scratches her head* Uh i'll leave you alone...*Jumps down offthe roof and sits on the steps outside the castle* (Leyla) Uhh...Sure?

2007-11-05 [shadows of life]: (Shade)*disappears*

2007-11-05 [Fake smiles and Bittersweet kisses]: (jinsai) yeah...dont worry about it

2007-11-05 [;;Melodrama Junkie]: (Leyla) *Nods and moves away from the fire, curling up a few metres away in the shadows, shuddering a little*

2007-11-05 [Fake smiles and Bittersweet kisses]: (jinsai)*glances at leyla before staring into the flames for a long moment before extending his hand out into the flames*

2007-11-05 [;;Melodrama Junkie]: *Watches him curiously before crawlng over to him* so um..what you doing?

2007-11-05 [shadows of life]: (Shade) *appears next to the castles in human form*

2007-11-05 [;;Melodrama Junkie]: (Kristi) *Looks over at Shade*

2007-11-05 [shadows of life]: (Shade)*sit down*

2007-11-05 [Fake smiles and Bittersweet kisses]: (jinsai) *keeps his hand in the fire turning it in diffrent angles watching as his shirt catches on fire and shrugs*

2007-11-05 [;;Melodrama Junkie]: I'm sorry if I upset you again..(Leyla) *Rolls her eyes and mumbles "hypocrite" under her breath*

2007-11-05 [shadows of life]: (Shade) *shrugs*

2007-11-05 [Fake smiles and Bittersweet kisses]: (jinsai) if you say so *pulls his hand out his shirt still on fire*

2007-11-05 [;;Melodrama Junkie]: *Blushes slightly and grabs his sleeve with her hand, putting it out before pulling her hand awayand curling up again in the shadows* (Kristi) *Nods slightly but stays silent*

2007-11-05 [shadows of life]: (Shade)*looks up at Kristi*

2007-11-05 [Fake smiles and Bittersweet kisses]: (jinsai) *looks over at her* what did you do that for? did you burn yourself?

2007-11-05 [;;Melodrama Junkie]: (Leyla) *Mumbles* I'm fine.. (Kristi) *Forces a slight smile at him* What?

2007-11-05 [Fake smiles and Bittersweet kisses]: (jinsai) *moves over infront of her taking her hand* are you sure

2007-11-05 [shadows of life]: (Shade) *shrugs and looks down* don't know

2007-11-05 [;;Melodrama Junkie]: (Leyla) *Nods a little and pulls her hand away, holding it close to her chest* (Kristi) *sighs and looks at him* You're really upset huh?

2007-11-05 [shadows of life]: (Shade) no

2007-11-05 [;;Melodrama Junkie]: (Kristi) *Frowns* then what is up with you?

2007-11-05 [Fake smiles and Bittersweet kisses]: (jinsai) please leyla let me see

2007-11-05 [;;Melodrama Junkie]: (Leyla) I'm fine..I can't even feel it..I'm used to it...*Sighs as looks away from him holding out her hand*

2007-11-05 [shadows of life]: (Shade) depressed

2007-11-05 [;;Melodrama Junkie]: (Kristi) Because of Chloe?

2007-11-05 [Fake smiles and Bittersweet kisses]: (jinsai) *takes her hand between his cool ones* im sorry

2007-11-05 [;;Melodrama Junkie]: (Leyla) Why? Wasn't your fault... *Forces a smile at him* Don't worry...

2007-11-05 [shadows of life]: (Shade) *nods*

2007-11-05 [Fake smiles and Bittersweet kisses]: (jinsai) *looks up at her* dose it feel any better

2007-11-05 [;;Melodrama Junkie]: *Sighs* I'm really sorry about her Shade... (Leyla) *Nods* I guess..?

2007-11-05 [Fake smiles and Bittersweet kisses]: (jinsai) *moves one of his hands looking at hers*

2007-11-05 [shadows of life]: (Shade) i know it just....

2007-11-05 [;;Melodrama Junkie]: *Watches him tilting her head to the side again with a small smile* (Kristi) You really liked her?

2007-11-05 [shadows of life]: (Shade) *nods*

2007-11-05 [Fake smiles and Bittersweet kisses]: (jinsai) *leans down slightly blowing cool air over it*

2007-11-05 [;;Melodrama Junkie]: *Smiles weakly* I'm sorry..*hugs him loosely* (Leyla) *Pulls on her hand slightly biting her lip*

2007-11-05 [shadows of life]: (Shade) thanks...

2007-11-05 [Fake smiles and Bittersweet kisses]: (jinsai) *stops looking up at her* sorry did that hurt?

2007-11-05 [;;Melodrama Junkie]: (Kristi) *Nods slightly* Welcome..I guess (Leyla) *Shakes her head slowly* No..Just feels weird..

2007-11-05 [shadows of life]: (Shade) *nods*

2007-11-05 [Fake smiles and Bittersweet kisses]: (jinsai) oh *smiles slightly putting his hand back over hers to keep it cool*

2007-11-05 [;;Melodrama Junkie]: *Rests her head on the ground looking up at him, rolling onto her back* Can I have it back yet? There was hardly a mark on it.... (Kristi)*Looks down* hmm..

2007-11-05 [Fake smiles and Bittersweet kisses]: (jinsai) *lets go of her hand blushing slightly*

2007-11-05 [shadows of life]: (Shade) so

2007-11-05 [;;Melodrama Junkie]: *Smiles and closes her eyes resting her hand where he let it go* Thanks.. (Kristi) I have no idea...

2007-11-05 [shadows of life]: (Shade)*Shrugs* i'm going home

2007-11-05 [Fake smiles and Bittersweet kisses]: (jinsai) sure...no problem *looks away*

2007-11-05 [;;Melodrama Junkie]: (Kristi) *Nods slightly* Well..I'm crap for comfort buti'm here if you need anything not connected to emotion...*Smiles weakly at him* (Leyla) *Opens one eye and look up at him before sitting up slightly* You okay?

2007-11-05 [Fake smiles and Bittersweet kisses]: (jinsai) im fine

2007-11-05 [Jasiara Hotalti]: (Pheonara) Thanks hun, don't worry about me dear

2007-11-06 [;;Melodrama Junkie]: (Leyla) You sure? *Pulls his head round so he is looking at her*

2007-11-06 [Fake smiles and Bittersweet kisses]: (amaya) ill always worry about you phe (jinsai) *smiles it not quite touching his eyes* yeah im sure

2007-11-06 [shadows of life]: (Shade)*waves and start walking away*

2007-11-06 [;;Melodrama Junkie]: (Kristi) *Waves a little before laying back, mumbling mopily* God..Where is that guy when you need him... (Leyla) You promise me? *Raises a brow, obviously not believeing him*

2007-11-06 [Fake smiles and Bittersweet kisses]: (jinsai) promise

2007-11-06 [Jasiara Hotalti]: (Pheonara) You shouldn't though, I'll be fine (Kikote) *walks down the road with a raised brow*

2007-11-06 [shadows of life]: (Shade) *walks down the street*

2007-11-06 [;;Melodrama Junkie]: (Leyla) *Grits her teeth slightly and nods, laying back down* (Kristi) *Continues whining, her mumbles growing louder*

2007-11-06 [Fake smiles and Bittersweet kisses]: (jinsai) is somthing wrong with you? (amaya) *shrugs smiling* ill try

2007-11-06 [shadows of life]: (Shade)*keeps walking*

2007-11-06 [Jasiara Hotalti]: (Pheonara) Alright, thanks...*smiles halfheartedly*

2007-11-06 [Fake smiles and Bittersweet kisses]: (amaya) dont mention it

2007-11-06 [;;Melodrama Junkie]: *Shrugs* Nothing really..(KRisti) *Sighs and stands, rubbing her head before seeing Kikote, the sight of him bringing a small smile to her lips*

2007-11-06 [Fake smiles and Bittersweet kisses]: (jinsai) you sure

2007-11-06 [;;Melodrama Junkie]: (Leyla) *Nods* I can just see you aren't as happy as usual....Which..*sighs her voice quieter* means you probably just lied to me...

2007-11-06 [shadows of life]: (Shade) *walks into a bar*

2007-11-06 [Jasiara Hotalti]: (Pheonara) Alright (Kikote) *smiles as he spots Kristi* how are you?

2007-11-06 [Fake smiles and Bittersweet kisses]: (jinsai) i didnt lie to you leyla.....its just *looks down* everything seems so diffrent now....

2007-11-06 [;;Melodrama Junkie]: (Kristi) *Smirks slightly and walks to him silently hugging him tightly as soon as she reaches him, burying her face on his shoulder* (Leyla) *Sits up again and hugs him tightly* What do you mean?

2007-11-06 [shadows of life]: (Shade) *order a drink*

2007-11-06 [Fake smiles and Bittersweet kisses]: (jinsai) *hugs her back* im scared.....i feel so alone now....

2007-11-06 [;;Melodrama Junkie]: (Leyla) you aren't alone...*Shudders as she feels him getting colder but keeps him held close*

2007-11-06 [Fake smiles and Bittersweet kisses]: (jinsai) yes i am *pulls away sitting back a few feet* i cant even hug you anymore without you almost freezing.....

2007-11-06 [Jasiara Hotalti]: (Kikote) *hugs her back with a concerned look* whats wrong?

2007-11-06 [;;Melodrama Junkie]: *Frowns and moves so she's behind him, wrapping her arms around him tightly* You are my friend jinsai..I'll freeze if that's what it takes to get you happier... (Kristi) *Keeps her face buried on his shoulder the muffled words "I'm not cut out for this" emerging*

2007-11-06 [Fake smiles and Bittersweet kisses]: (jinsai) *shakes his head grabbing her hands but not moving them away* you know i dont want that leyla....

2007-11-06 [shadows of life]: (Shade) *down the drink and order another*

2007-11-06 [;;Melodrama Junkie]: Then...Calm down..*Kisses his shoulder lightly, squeezing his hands tightly*

2007-11-06 [Jasiara Hotalti]: (Kikote) Cut out for what?

2007-11-06 [;;Melodrama Junkie]: (Kristi) *sighs pulling her head back looking up at him* Relationships..Parenting...Helping..Take your pick..there's a good few to choose from..

2007-11-06 [Fake smiles and Bittersweet kisses]: (jinsai) *takes a deep breath*

2007-11-06 [shadows of life]: (Shade) *downs the drink*

2007-11-06 [;;Melodrama Junkie]: (Leyla) *Smiles slightly* That's a little better..And again..?

2007-11-06 [Fake smiles and Bittersweet kisses]: (jinsai) *takes another breath shuddering slightly*

2007-11-06 [;;Melodrama Junkie]: *hugs him tighter* It's working hun..((I have to go))

2007-11-06 [shadows of life]: ((see you))

2007-11-06 [Fake smiles and Bittersweet kisses]: ((byes)) (jinsai) *squeezes her hands gently*

2007-11-06 [Jasiara Hotalti]: (Kikote) You're doing your best its all you can do....

2007-11-07 [;;Melodrama Junkie]: ((Backk.. P=)) (Kristi) But what if my best isn't good enough.....*Looks up at him nervously* (Leyla) *Smiles* You are kinda warm now...*Pulls her arms gently from around him and sits quietly*

2007-11-07 [shadows of life]: ((hey))

2007-11-07 [;;Melodrama Junkie]: ((hiii. Cant rp btw. English stuff for tomorrow x_x))

2007-11-07 [shadows of life]: ((ok then))

2007-11-07 [Fake smiles and Bittersweet kisses]: (jinsai) *smiles slightly* its cause im close to you

2007-11-07 [;;Melodrama Junkie]: ((Finally finishedddd......x_x)) *Laughs a little before moving to his side, a slightly confused look on her face*

2007-11-07 [Fake smiles and Bittersweet kisses]: ((yayz)) (jinsai) *looks over to her* what?

2007-11-07 [;;Melodrama Junkie]: *Smiles* what? ((^^))

2007-11-07 [Fake smiles and Bittersweet kisses]: (jinsai) whats that look for

2007-11-07 [;;Melodrama Junkie]: *Shrugs and smiles softly* Jus didnt understand really..What you meant I mean..

2007-11-07 [Fake smiles and Bittersweet kisses]: (jinsai) about what

2007-11-07 [;;Melodrama Junkie]: *Shakes her head* Doesn't matter...

2007-11-07 [Fake smiles and Bittersweet kisses]: (jinsai) you sure *raises a brow*